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Saturday, 31 January 2009

  • Saying I love you and proving it

    So I just broke up with this guy I've been dating for 3 months. He turned out to be a complete jerk. I can't believe I even wasted 3 months of my time on someone like him.

    Anyways, he told me from the beginning that he has commitment issues and that he didn't know if he wanted a serious girlfriend right now. I told him that I didn't want to get serious with him either since he is leaving soon for the Marines, but then in his words he said, "I don't know. It might." That made me think that he wanted to get into a real relationship and would be ready for one if things worked out between us. He told me that he has been cheated on emotionally in the past by his ex's, which is why he can't trust me or any other girl. I've tried to be understanding about that, and despite him not trusting me, I trusted him almost completely.

    On Christmas day he told me officially that he loved me (he has kind of mentioned it before in the past randomly, but I never took him seriously), and that he cared about me a great deal. After that, he would tell me he loved me whenever we were together, and I blindly believed him. When he told me he loved me, I thought that we would start being exclusive with each other, even if we didn't officially have "the talk". I didn't exactly consider him my bf or tell anyone he was, but he would sometimes jokingly call me his gf, which made me believe that that is what he considered me as and that we really were together. He would talk to me about our future and joke about getting married. Sometimes he wouldn't even be joking; he would just make a comment that implied him thinking that he wants to marry me. All those things he said made me believe that he was serious about me and that he really did love and care about me a lot like he claimed.

    Then last Friday he told me something that made me finally come to my senses. He told me he took my friend out on a couple of dates. I was so mad at him when he told me that, because first of all, my friend?! Second of all, I already talked to him about her and told him our history back in high school. My friend and I met him the same night, and he got both our numbers. So they have been talking and stuff while I dated him, and I could tell that she really liked him. I talked to him about it and told him that I didn't want history repeating itself with me and her, because we liked the same guy back in high school too. I thought after telling him that, he would think about my feelings and maybe not contact her as much. But nope, instead, he took her out on a date a couple of weeks ago (after he told me he loved me) and they even kissed. When I talked to him about it, he didn't think there was anything wrong with him taking my friend out because I told him that "we aren't that good of friends anymore." He didn't feel sorry for what he did or for making me feel bad, instead he got mad at me cuz I got mad at him. I told him that it might be best if we just stopped seeing each other, and he got really mad at me, saying that he thought we were past the stage where we would break up for something "so little" when we care about each other so much and how he doesn't date just to date, but with the intention of marriage. I ended up not breaking up with him that night, but a week later. When I broke things off with him officially, he acted like he didn't care and that all we ever were was just friends and nothing more.

    I just don't understand how he can think that it's ok to tell me he loves me and then go and take my friend out on dates and kiss her. He made it abundantly clear that we were never official and that he had the freedom to date whomever he wants without my consent. However, he still says that he meant it when he told me he loved me and he still does, but he really has done nothing to prove it. Is he the jerk or is it just me who thought too much and overreacted? When someone tells you they love you, what expectations do you have from them? Do you expect them to prove it to you?

Wednesday, 14 January 2009

  • How do guys express their love...?

    So I've been dating this guy for 2 1/2 months, and he's actually leaving to the marines this Saturday. We've had a good relationship for the most part, but now that he's leaving, I don't know if our relationship is really strong enough to handle the separation (he'll be gone in training longer than we've been dating and also longer than we've even known each other). I don't know what to do about our relationship because I don't know if I can actually completely commit to him or if we're really meant to be together or not. I know that if I decide to be with him, it will be really hard for me because he will be in active duty for at least 4 years. I really like him, but I just feel scared and nervous about what will happen while he's gone. What if our feelings change? I kind of don't want to be completely exclusive with him right now because I kind of want to date other people too and I don't want to break his heart if I start dating other guys. I know I'm probably being very selfish and that I should tell him and clear everything up before he leaves, but the other thing I wonder about is how much he really cares about me. Sometimes I think that he really does love me, but then others I'm not so sure. When we're together, he does everything to show that he loves and cares about me a great deal. He'll kiss my hand, my forehead, stroke my hair, tell me he loves me, stare at me, etc. Yes those are all physical, but I can tell he does love me by the way he shows it physically. I mean, he does other nice things for me too. But then when we're not together, I wonder how much he really does care. He never calls or texts me first, he never asks me to go out with him and doesn't seem to care if he sees me or not for days on end (I'm ALWAYS the one inviting him to do stuff and go out), he never does anything cute/sweet/romantic for me, he just basically doesn't do anything for me while we're apart and seems to make no effort. Sometimes that makes me question how much he really cares, and especially since he's leaving for so long, I don't know if I feel secure enough that I'll still want to be with him after he gets back if I never hear from him. I guess I just don't know what to do, because I don't really want to break things off with him because I think we might have a future together, but on the other hand I'm also scared of what will happen to our relationship while he's gone. I just want to know that he really cares about me before I really seriously commit to him. So...I guess my question is guys, how do you express your love to your SOs? Do you do a lot for your gfs to show your love for her when you guys are apart? If not, why don't you?

Wednesday, 03 December 2008

  • He's leaving to the military...

    So I've been dating this guy for about a month and we both really like each other. Things are going great between us. I feel like we really connect and I'm really comfortable around him. I feel like he's someone I actually want to marry. Problem is he's leaving to the military in a month and a half. And for 4 years. I feel so torn because I don't know if I should even keep seeing him and get even more attached to him, and then being crushed when he leaves. If we do keep up our relationship after he leaves, I don't know if I can handle him being away for 4 years, especially since we've just met each other. My question is: what has been your experience with being in a relationship with someone in the military? Has it worked out? How hard was it?

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